Friday, January 21, 2011

Mid-Life Crisis?

  I've been thinking lately about life in general specifically my life.  Life is so fragile and in the blink of an eye all that I know it to be can change.  Where's my life going? Am I on the right path? What's the right path?  Should I be doing more? How can I be a better person, wife, mom, sister, daughter?  I love the idea of starting and running my own business.  However, I feel like I need to be making a difference.  I tell myself that being the best mom right now IS making a difference.  For some reason it just doesn't seem to be enough.  Maybe it's because I haven't been able to define what being the perfect best mom is.  I know I should do such a good job so as to essentially make myself and all that I do not needed by my kids.  Teach them how to do all that they need to do and be holy, well-rounded, and upstanding.  I'm finding it hard to let go of the control. Controlling the way that things are done.  I tell myself that it's the process of the kiddos learning and not always necessarily the end result that's important at this time. 
  The business I'd like to create is a furniture refinishing one.  Seems kinda shallow, but I can spin it pretty well.  It does play in to the living green theme.  I could make it make a difference in people's lives by improving their surroundings, donate profits, empower others with the knowledge to do refinishing for themselves, provide opportunities for therapy and conversation while working.
  Maybe it's a mid-life crisis (I'm suddenly feeling like I'm getting older!)  maybe it's just desiring more and trying to actually follow through, fulfill, and attain a dream.  Who knows where I'll go with this, but it feels good to get it in writing and out of my head.  :)
  Anyone else out there feel similar???


  1. I think sometimes us stay at home moms feel like we need to be doing more than "just" staying at home, especially as our children get older. I think it's perfectly normal for you to want something that is YOURS. Moms give and give and give and give and it is only human to want to carve out a little piece of the world that just belongs to you. If the whole furniture thing is something you are good at (which it seems to be) and it makes you happy then maybe it's something you should really look into. It sounds like it might be something that you could also easily balance with your home responsibilities as well. Good luck! You can be a good mom AND do something for yourself.

  2. I was having a similar crisis last year and accidentally ended up working part time. Just pray and it will all work out as it should.

  3. You can always do the furniture (or other things) when you have time and make it a truly "part time" thing. It doesn't have to be a set in stone type of business unless that's what you really want. You have an eye for re-doing old things. What's the harm in trying if you feel you're being called to it? Praying for you, as always! :) Lots of love!!!



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